One Thing I Do to Procrastinate

I sit in this stasis, desiring to complete the time of studying set forth before me, but reluctant to begin.  My head is in a constant struggle of reminding itself to begin working, while simultaneously rationalizing the efforts put forth to prevent any work being completed.

Time is of the essence, and I wish for so many things to happen, but they are reliant on memorization of words necessary for the quiz that will take place in nearly 15 hours.  Why- Why oh why do I continue this battle?

Even this, now, here, is but a tool to keep myself occupied and prevent me from beginning.  As I write, though, I come to realize the inevitability of my struggle.  That I must begin, regardless of everything else happening, or going to happen.  I must study.

So, I come to a stalemate, something of a checkmate, but can you truly admit defeat to your own self?  Do you not still win?  That is another matter for other times, one to be considered in the future, if never.

Thinking of John Denver

I can remember in 5th grade when I wrote a letter to John Denver's mom after he died. I listened to him and loved him instantly. I remember I made my parents buy me his music. I rediscover him everyonce in a while. Hopefully, this time I don't forget him. He's so damn good.

If you've forgotten, or never knew.  Check this out: 

Life is a Bunch of Mini-Adventures

Tonight was a mini-adventure.  All those mini-adventures throughout your life add up to make your life an adventure, but if you never take that risk to deviate from your path, you'll live a life of.........A life without adventures.  ....I sure as hell don't want that.

Hy-Vee has an organic section where you can make your own trail mix.  While we stood there in the aisle with our large, obnoxious blue race car cart I continually took hand fulls of chocolate covered raisins.  Handful by handful, I ate more than my fair share.  Meanwhile, we went through every scent in the essential oils rack, my favorites were Lemon and Sweet Orange.  They had that sweet, sugary smell with citrus that just invigorates you and makes you smile.  It's the slow creeping, undeniable smile that you get when something is just plain good.  I kept going back for more handfuls though.  Even while we were in the other section over, I would go back and grab more.

1 Thing I Downloaded Today - Rocki Evans

Here is an up and coming R&B singer.  His name is Rocki Evans, and his new release is ridiculously good.  I'm refraining from using slang I normally wouldn't.  So, I won't, and instead I will tell you some of the words or phrases others commented on his album: dope, sick, good shit, fooo real, etc.

Today is the Day

Al-yuum huwa al-yuum.

Today is the beginning of a new phase.  Today I renewed my dedication to my fitness, to my health, to m diet.  Today I began a new regimen, one to help a friend achieve a goal, one to give me something to work for.

 I'm excited at the possibilities.

I wrote this in my notebook the other day.

4-6-10
Defintion of Slavery-regardless of time & place
Servitude to person or entity due to a form of oppression, where the consequences of disregarding the servitude are extreme in a tangible sense &/or inadequate return for service [repeated and demanded].
-> Are you a slave to something? Credit card, mortgage, job, etc.?

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Just some thoughts.

1 Story and My Thoughts on Guidebooks

I read the article on Matador's Traveler's Notebook and it spawned a great response, which I posted as a comment.  I love it so much, though, that I decided to post it here as well.

Enjoy.