It's been a while. No? Don't lie, it has. ^1
A lot has changed in my life. I'd rather not go into details. Suffice to say, there has been positive and negative changes that have resulted in sum zero.
I, we, made some decision that hurt, but ultimately, I hope--pray--think, will help, though.
I think about it, sometimes, and I hurt about it, sometimes. It depends on the mood, the context, it's not something that can be explained. Just trust me on this.
For the most part, these past couple months, my posts have not been pure writing from me, but this one is. So, if you don't like it, getthahellouttahere...got it?
I'm happy though. I organize I brain, I control my emotions, I control myself. You may say, but that's not really happiness, or that's not letting yourself live.^2 I say, and yet those whole rule themselves with reckless abandon end in a downward spiral of self-pity that longs for attention of the needy-pleasing masses. I'd rather be me, than you. No offense, but I like me more than you, probably. ^3 Unless you're like Johnny Depp, or....Cristian Ronaldo...or David Beckham....yup..that's about it. Maybe Robert Pattinson, but I wouldn't have done Twilight, and then he wouldn't be "Robert Pattinson", which would defeat the purpose of me being him.^4 I feel like this is logos, a circle, never ending. Blah, what? You don't follow? Yeah, that happens.^5
This is my life. That is my life ^ . I think, I tangent(+verb) - what the hell is the verb form of tangent...tangential is adjectival....^6 whatever.
There, again, perfect example of my life. Still....you don't follow? Hell, you just don't know me. In person I curse a lot more too. I filter it a bit for my writing, for you.^7
I don't want to write about what I really want to write about right now. (So many write/right there.....I almost confused myself.^8) This post is all tangents. Good. Are you nonplussed yet? ^9 Now you are you say, you mean you're confused? You're nonplussed.^10 Yes that is essentially the same thing. ^11Oh, you didn't know that? Well, you learn something new every day, don't you? Congrats, you're less of an imbecile now than you were 5 minutes ago.^12
Was I a tad mean there? Sorry, I say it like it is with a dash of asshole.
Well, screw off, I'm out.
Peace & Love
Go make friends and read some books, that's the best thing you can do for this world. (Post to come later about that topic - tangent)^13
P.S. There are 13 tangents in this post...some may argue on which are tangents and which are not, but they can fuck off, because I write this post and I decide. So, deal with it.